JaM

see the pain in me

broken stained glass windows, the fragments rambled on, tales of broken souls an eternity's been won... and in my picture book im trying hard to see, turning endless pages of my tragedies...sculpting every move i compose a symphomy, and i plead to everyone...see the pain in me....

my eyes and drawn to him, blurry from the tears, no i cant see..i cant open it now..i cant speak, not lost for words but lost of breath, it hurts so much i can describe it...it hurts so much i dont even know where to start...

my only relationship not recorded, not written down... the only man, i least thought id end up with...but he's here, he's here inside me..consuming every part of me...

will somebody please help me??

Who I am Hates Who I've Been

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics

Cause I dont want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
Thats exactly where I lost it
See that line
Where I never should've crossed it
Stop right there
Where I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

I talk to absolutely no one
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside
Have finally begun to create so much pressure
That I'd soon blow up and

I heard the reverberating foosteps
Sinking up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart

And I can't let that happen again
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life

broken wings

Fight the fight alone
When the world is full of victims
Dims a fading light
In our souls

Leave the peace alone
Now we all are slowly changing
Dims a fading light
In our souls

In my opinion seeing is to know
The things we hold
Are always first to go
And who's to say
We won't end up alone

On broken wings I'm falling
And it won't be long
The skin on me is burning
By the fires of the sun
On skinned knees
I'm bleeding
And it won't be long
I've got to find that meaning
I'll search for so long

Cry ourselves to sleep
We will sleep alone forever
Will you lay me down
In the same place with all I love

Mend the broken homes
Care for them they are our brothers
Save the fading light in our souls

In my opinion seeing is to know
What you give
Will always carry you
And who's to say
We won't survive it too

Set a-free all
Relying on their will
To make me all that I am
And all that I'll be

Set a-free all
Will fall between the cracks
With memories of all that I am
And I'll that I'll be

gunbound

BOOMER-1 wind, 89 angle, SS shot with thor..weeeee!! if you dont understand what that means its most probably you belong to the prehistoric ages where pacman was the lates craze and that family computer was the in thing..oh well, my respects to pacman as being one of the pioneers in the gaming industry, but people its time to move on to the latest online shooting game...yup gunbound, well in our case, GB Philippines... i highly recommend the game for its fun, exciting, has the cutest characters and yeah, its relaxing compared to other RPG games that give me migranes.. il c yah in court, ja ne!

emo rock

most people i know doesnt know the meaning of emo rock...basically its just an abreviation for emotional music..the borders between alternative/punk and emo rock is vague and paper thin..the only difference is that the lyrics are emotionally loaded, most of the time sang with extreme emotions, leading to another genre, that is screamo music...this type of rock genre is fast emerging into the mainstream music, people dont even realize they are actually listening to a new brand of music...but how do i really define emo??? let me say---finch, the used, story of the year, switchfoot... the list goes on and on... the good thing is that local music has coped up fast with the emergence of bands like smooth friction, with thier original compositions in cebuano dialect..all i can say is, rock on!

sigh! listen to a gurl like me talk about this, unbelievable? better believe is coz its for real..ja ne!